fuck you system

i want to scream out loud
i just want to say a thing
anything
but i refuse to
i stay silent
i dont even know why
i just sit
and bleed
once again
in pain and misery
of hate against me
nothing will ever change
my hope is dying
once again
my heart is bursting
once again

i just want to die
now

reset

i wish i could stop
this
stop this all

the overflowing pain
and misery
and my tears oh my tears
(well fuck, here we go again)
the memories of those
who have left
memories
the lights
the shadows
the good and
the bad ones
warmth and cold
-it vanishes through my mind-
the words that i've spoken
the paths that i've taken

all i've been
my existence
why
can't I just
delete this
all

why
can't I just
turn and just
be who i am
again

is there a cure for this?

i just wish that it ends
someday