this is my act

And there is
once again
nothing left of me
shall i have anything more to say?
you're gone-
i'm gone
we're gone
if this "we" even ever existed
maybe it were minutes
or even hours
i was thoughtless caught
by your beautiful face

and now you told me
that i'm already done
"thank you miss"
i shall say in your voice
"how very nice of you"
i shall act just like you

i am filled up with misery
with pain and sadness
i am numb
fucking once again
my tears will fall down
for someone
who doesn't even cares

and i am sure now this is it
the message to finally end it
i made mistakes once again
i warned myself but didn't listen
blinded by my naive mind
thanks for reminding me
of no hope left

get a gun pull the trigger
leave me cold and red
so i won't feel sad
this is it i give up
nothing to live for
thank you very much