An echo

My soft and high voice
A loveing and careassing gesture
A shy smile hidden by my fingers
Lashes flirtingly presented
Hesistant words
An elegant walk

What is it?
Where am I?
Not here.
Where do I belong?
Not here.
What makes you special?
Nothing.
Why do you feel the way you do?
I don't know.
Are you sad?
No.
Are you unhappy?
Yes.
Who are you?
I don't know.
Anymore

An echo
Hello
Hello Hello
Hello Hello Hello
Hi
How are you
How is it to know
your own child has been broken by themselves
A smile
fades
Tears have been my friends all my life
I never knew myself
I can't get to know myself
all is blurry
all is covered red in blood
all the glass scattered on the floor-
take my hand
bring me home
give me air to breath and pavements to walk
give me hope and love
no more lies
no more lies
echo echo echo
lost
in this labyrinth of mirrors
is there any true human nature left of me now
my spirit is gone
it's been
broken
a long
long
time ago
music blasting though my head
reviving all the veins inside my body
They tell me I am sad and I am pitiful
scattered glass
i am drunk
of all the up and downs they've given me
i throw up
to get rid of all their chemicals
thank you very much
fuck you all
high heels on a boy never looked so good
pack my things and go
i never loved it to spit on you so much