The Kill

And they stare at me
I have the feeling everybody just stares
at my shaking hands
my sweating face
at my helplessness
at me

(And school is my hell)
Everyday the torture
the judgement
the laughing
mocking

All I want is to hide
to never go out ever again

Nobody to make me insecure
Nobody to laugh at me
Nobody to judge me
Nobody to mock me
Nobody to hurt me
Nobody
Nobody

I have the feeling I just do not belong
( to never belong )
in this harsh world
with such high standarts
fucked-up views and beauty

I don't want to get treaten like a beast
something unhuman
a victim
a loser

I don't want to exist anymore
I want to vanish like time
  want to get forgotten
  with all of my fails

I just do not feel like doing anything anymore
Everday I give my best
Everday I try to start
           new

But it seems like nobody ever loved me
ever appreaciated me
ever liked me
ever accepted me
like I am

All I hear are only lies
only denials
only shouts
only insults

breaking me
infecting me
hurting me
killing me