he is dead

i dropped
out
i am lonely
 ( but the reek accompanies me )

i ask myself
why i don't cry anymore
maybe because i'm not alone anymore
( the white walls accompanies me )

my love was
and my love is
my destruction
my obession
will be my ending of it all

i don't know
i just thought of thinking
of not thinking of
commiting suicide

days go by
but i do not
recognize
memorize
i do not grow
i do not rise

all i do is wait until
my time has come

but i'm so lucky
i'm accompanied by the white walls
who are my best friends now