now you see me

my heart stops
as they stare
their eyes turn white
black and
red
staring into my soul
and i collapse
cover my face
i know i am hideous
gross and weird
i know i do not belong
i can not
i will not
belong

still they are loud
they scare out me
and there is not
a single gap for me

why
are they so different
are they so different
are they so loud
are they asking me

i do not know
i do not know