Bye

Disgustig
Degrading
I am full and overflowing of shame

I feel ugly
I feel dirty
I feel like dying again

Cover me cover me
me and ugly body
my ugly personality
Bury me bury me
You have never
loved me
the right way

Why does this bring back those memories?
Why now?

I only feel hatred and disgust
against you
and me
against everyone of them

I am scared
scared only of me
scared of what will come
unavoidablely

I want the music to overscream
the piercing noise of silence
I want to tie my laces,
take a breath
and run
run
run
run
run
run
run
faster and faster
only away from what keeps hurting me
judging and restraining
abusing and refusing me
doesn't understand me
and doesn't even bothers to think about trying
Not looking back
I will run
into home
there where my heart is
where no silence is ever heard